testing doank
July 28th, 2008 by foolapriltest posting blog fs tanpa kproxy…bisa gak ya?!?!
Happy Anniversary
March 3rd, 2008 by foolaprilHuaaa…iseng2 buka2 blog FS gw eh ternyata bisa….uhhh senangnya setelah sekian lama since gw di china entah kenapa nih blog fs gw diblock,,,padahal kan bukan situs yang aneh2:(…makanya gw ucapin Happy anniversary buat kembalinya blog kesayangan gw ini setelah sekian lama di duri juga gak bisa diakses kalo gw dirignya akirnya sekrang bisa lagi…and Happy anniversary buat diri gw sendiri…kenapa???
Yupss….karena ini hari pas banget hari ke-30 gw disini (genap sebulan), di Transocean legend 6 ato berapa sih nih, teuing ah…di exploration gas well punya nya Devon, Baiyun 6-1-1, 280 km from land on South China Sea.
Dua hari ini cuaca bagus banget laut tenang gak kek biasanya yang ombak mlulu, angin kenceng2 banget ama ujan terus…
People have kept on going one by one since last week, yes Crew change…and me..us (MWD/LWD team exactly) stay aja disini:( Hari ke-30 pas banget dirayakan dengan TD nya kita di section ini yey yipppie yey, semula dipikir kita bakal dikirim balik buat nunggu casing break ini, ternyata nggak hiks…kita tetep disuruh disini…Tapi emang sesuai rencana awal emang gitu sih, kalo kita stay disini ampe project ini bener2 selese, but ditengah2 plan sempet berubah gara2 rig equipment sering rusak, mereka bkl mahal byrnya kalo harus ngekeep kita disini, pdhl qt sendiri gak ngapa2in, makanya mereka berencana ngirim kita balik pas casing break coring dkk, itupun kalo mereka nemu payzone di tiap TD sectionnya sesuai ama estimasi mereka, but actually nampaknya dari log yang kita dapet sand nya gak setebel yang diprediksiin…but anyhow still waiting hasil dari wireline yang bakal logging besok (insya Allah…mudah2an biar cepet kelar)…
Tapi ternyata rencana berubah, mereka tetep ngekeep kita soalnya mereka mo ngedrill cement pake hole opener dan tool kita, yasudah deh kita gak bisa pulang sementara si DD pinjeman dari NOrway yang super duper mahal itu katanya mo balik rabu ini, disusul ma DD china satunya lagi…nah gw ama cellman gw tetep wae disini jadi penghuni sejati 
Niwe baidewe, job ni bener2 bikin kepala gw mo pecah, tangan gw cuma dua, mulut gw cuma satu, banyak banget request, gw kek sekretaris telpon gak berenti2 bunyi, telpon rig, telpon houston(ampe salah2 ngangkat gw), socket UPS meledak dua kali pula dan dua2nya di shift gw hiks, power unit shut down, operation shutdown bntar gara2 power unit mati, downtime gara2 body lifting sub gak cocok ama clamp topdrive jadilah connection tuh dilakuin secara lateral di catwalk manual bo!! rig crew, toolpusher ama driller bareng2 ngetorque pake wrench…gila pertama kali seumur hidup gw ngeliat koneksi tool begitu…RIR!!!!hahahahaha makanya makan waktu lama bgt buat align toolnya aja…ya abis mo digimanain lagi mo nunggu lifting sub dari kota?!?gak mungkin….
Sebenernya yang paling bikin gw BT dari semuanya adalah orang2 petrolink sumpah pengen ditabok satu2 kali tuh ya mereka…operasi sih lancar2 aja tapi gara2 si petrolink itu semuanya banyak yang ke-ignore, selalu bikin naek darah..udah tau china-houston beda waktu 10-12 jam more or less yah ampir setengah harian gt deh, otomatis kalo disono siang itu lagi tengah malem alias lagi shift gw, dan bos2 di kantor juga lagi pada tidur…eh mereka dengan seenak2 bibirnya aja maen telpon boss of big boss setiap kali gak bisa koneksi data transmisi dari WITS kita, bukannya coba ditroubleshoot dulu bareng2, di adjust sama2 antar sistem kita si IDEAL super pinter itu ama sistem mereka, cuz wut? orang2 geoservis juga dapet masalah yang sama dalam data transmisi ke mereka, makanya kita (mwd ama geoservice) pd gondok semua. Udah mesti banyak yang dikerjain disini digerecokin ma mereka. Manajer di kota marah2 gara2 ditelponin ama orang houston, yang gebleknya ampe Account Manager SLB di houston ikut terlibat dalam job ini …sinting…semua gara2 si petrolink dudul itu…harusnya kita bisa ngecharge WITS kita ke mereka nih…kenapa sih devon gak pake INTERACT aja gitu…but anyhow nambah pengalaman banyak banget deh buat gw, gw jadi tau ngoprek2 detil tuh rec setup ama rec.dat di wits, sebelomnya gw gak pernah nguplik2 yang namanya record files di adv_wits, tinggal make aja, gak pernah gw ngoprek2 or buka2 globals.dat rec_setup segala macem2 begitu2an dah, cuma gara2 kudu setting data transmisi ke petrolink yah mau gak mau deh harus…tapi overall satu kata NYEBELINNNNNN….banyak miskomunikasi…mereka butuh offset depth, eh yang nyampe di mulut big boss2 itu adalah kalo measured depth tuh gak nyampe ke mereka, jelas2 status depth di wits panel kekirim terus continuosly…ah nyebelin deh…jadi aja gw kena marah ama fsm gw deh…hiks:(
tapi udah deh mereka diem pas mereka dah dapet offset depth MD ama TVD, yang terus dikirim realtime while drilling ngikutin current depth kita…(ih gw baru tau yang ini niy…) ini pun hasil kita ngoprek2 globals ama rec8 yang dah disetting sebelomnya, baru deh dapet…gw ama cellman gw ampe kesenengan gitu pas dapet solusi dari mencoba2nya kita…hehehe gimana nggak tiga hari pusing mikirin beginian doank!!!!
Ughhh…but overall time flies so fast here, gak kerasa aja dah 30 hari gw ngendon disini, rekor buat gw nih bo yang paling banter cuma dua minggu dirig dha gitu break, tenang lia…tenang…perjalanan masih panjang!!!and it seems I will celebrate my birthday here….hiks:( cuz estimasi pertengahan april baru kelar huaaaaaaaaaaa:(( perlengkapan wanita gw makin menipis, minyak kayu putih botol gede gw dah abis, tolak angin gw tinggal 2 sachet, padahal kan itu dua2nya senjata gw paling ampuh kalo lagi jaga malem biar gak masuk angin…niwe berdoa aja deh…lumayan seneng karena tipi di kamar gw dah nyala…yippie…berasa di hotel gitu gw, tidur di kamar sendiri, tipi kabel segala macem kamar mandi private buat gw di kamar, di rig laen gw blom pernah diperlakukan khusus kek ini wekekekekeke…(di staphos gw aja gak dikasih tipi kabel hahahaha miskin tuh gak mo rugi 
padahal katanya aktivitas lagi tinggi2nya tapi tetep aja cut cost dimana2…)
padahal katanya aktivitas lagi tinggi2nya tapi tetep aja cut cost dimana2…)tapi sebenernya overall gw bilang kamar tidurnya masih bagusan waktu gw di conoco, galley nya juga, tapi berhuubung disini cateringnya orang indo dan rig crewnya banyak ornag indo jadi daku lebih milih sini dibanding di conoco wekekekeke:D
Btw btw lagi nih…gw mendapati fenomena dunia sempit lagi hari ini…emang bener kata manatan boss gw di India, kalo kerja di oilfield itu ngebikin dunia lingkup kita jadi sempit dan mengecil, kita akan bertemu orang yang sama or at least orang yang kenal dengan orang yang kita kenal yah gitu2 deh simplenya mah,,,,
Tadi pagi gw sarapan bareng bapak2 yang gw pikir orang transocean, seperti biasa sambil sarapan ngobrol ngalor ngidul basa basi dulu sampe akirnya dy nanya….
"mbak2 saya juga punya kenalan yang kerja di anadrill, mbak kenal gak mbak?!? dulu dy pernah kerja di atlas, di cilandak, terus dy pindha ke anadrill"
"oh iya saya kenal pak…loh Bapak kenal darimana? ketemu di rig?!?"
"oh…mbak kenal toh?beneran kenal sama dy?"
"iya pak kenal..bapak ketemu dirig?pernah ngejob bareng? di rig mana pak?"
"iya di rig pernah ketemu juga tapi di atlas juga ketemu"
Lah gw bingung, nih orang transocean kenal dimana, ngapain juga orang transocean jalan2 ke atlas, ada juga biasanya orang2 serpis yang maen2 ke rig buat rig visit…bukan sebaliknya…hmm gw pikir dy mgkn pernah kerja ama orang atlas di rig mana gitu, cuz sebelomnya dy bilang dy pernah ketemu ama anak anadrill cilandak di santosh, cewek juga ceunah which is itu senior gw di cilandak dulu (tuh kan dunia sempit)… eh ternyata2 pas dy cerita lebih jauh lagi dan lebih detil akirnya penasaran gw nanya…
"Pak…bapak nih orang transocean or orang atlas sih??"
"Oh saya orang atlas mbak…" hoalah ngobrol donk dari tadi…pates aja…lagipula kok gw kok gak konek2 ya, Bapak itu dari tadi emang lebih banyak ngomongin atlas ama logging ama kehidupannya di atlas deh…trus yaudah deh kita ngobrol ngalor ngidul lagi, tentang kerjaan dan kehidupannya dia di atlas, rumah dy di jakarta jadi kek malah ajang curhat wekekekeke….
eh malem2nya hal yang sama terjadi lagi, kali ini pas makan malem ama aorang transocean, yang gw pikir tadinya adlaah ornag indonesia, dengan seenak bibir gw, gw ngajak ngemeng dy nyerocos pake bahasa endonesa, pake manggil "mas…mas…" segala lagi..ternyata bah dy gak ngerti… yaudah jadi ajang curhat lagi pas semalem ama mas2 pilipin itu entah gw gak tau siapa namanya susah….heheheh udah ah dah panjang banget gw ngebacot dari tadi nungguin cabut tool gw gak nongol2…to be continued lagi di hari kesekian gw di rig ini juga ….
c ya….:)
Misss u…
November 23rd, 2007 by foolaprilSabtu ini lagi2 gw di stafhos terdampar sendirian, kl kemaren gw ditinggal ke knator, hari ini gw dtinggal anak2 ke pekanbaru,,,sebenernya udah diajakin dari kemaren sih tapi entah kenapa semalem tuh badan gw panas menggigil, dah gitu semua sekujur badan gw sakit2 gitu..aneh padahal kan seharian gak ke workshop, kepala pusing bnget yasudah deh abis makan malem langsung minum obat tewas seketika kebangun jam setengah 4 pagi…karena mual2 masuk angin…bangun setengah 6 solat subuh terus kebangun gara2 telp si agni..giling dah satu rumah masih nelpon juga lo neng!!!"sorry neng gw kagak ikutan ke pekanbaru daripada gw kenapa2 di jalan mending gw gak ambil resiko…" pagi2 dah rada baekan sih cuma tenggorokan masih aneh n badan masih lemes aja…selse sarapan minum teh anget n minum obat lagi…gak tau mesti ngapain…pengen tidur2an males..kepala gw makin sakit yaudah ngenet deh…eh sumpah lemot banget…ngenet juga bukan buat menghibur sih tapi karena emang perlu ngerjain sesuatu dan ngurus tiket pesawat besok…lagi tersakit2 kepala gw hp gw bunyi eh ternyata dari bokap gw…..I miss ur voice dad,,,really…udah gitu bokap gw ngomong sedih gitu, gw udah takut ada apa2 aja…abis gak biasa2nya dia memanggil nama gw dengan "Neng"… panggilan"" yang biasanya dia panggil kalo gw lagi sakit hiks:(( aduhhhhhhhhhhhhhh "Neng…lagi ngapain? sehat2 aja gak disana? kapan pulang? bla bla bla…" sumpaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh gw mo nangis n akirnya nangis juga….. I miss my hum….apalagi saat2 kayak gini gw lagi gak enak badan,,,pengen ada di rumah, pengen ada yang nyiapin makan…(entah makan siang pake apa gw kali ini hiks:(( )
ughhhhh…sampe kapan ya petualangan gw kerja kek gini berakhir….dunno still wondering about all…I want to be @ home now….hiks:((
How Fast!!!!
November 14th, 2007 by foolapril"How fast….", those words seems so close to me recently. Everything is going so fast on me. When my new manager in India called me sumdays ago when I was still on da rig, I was just surprised picked up the phone from the number I didnt know. I dunno wut he intended by calling me, I just guessed that he just wanna update about the latest of my progress here since there must be hand over from Naresh to him. He just conveyed me the news which he didnt know whether it was good or bad for me…He just told me about my vacation proposal as a good side. He agree with me as my prev manager did it to me, and the big news was I got TRANSFERED hiks:(… by the time when he told me that I am not belong to india any longer since next month, I dunno wut happened I was just so shock. He told me that my name has officially got transfered to another location and its been listed and arranged over there since last month. Hence, after finishing my period here in duri I gotta go back to India just to collect the remained stuff of mine in ma apartment and fly directly to my new location.
I wonder, although its only a bit time I spent my days in india, but I was sad hearing such news. I just got some firends that I really enjoy to hang around with them (feel so comfortabel that i can feel that I am back to my normal life). I just got so many Indonesian mafiaz over there, but everything’s supposed to be over soon. I still wanna do the job over there. I still wanna c my friends over there, n the most saddening thing is that I am afraid when I come there to take all my luggage, I can not c my all close friends over there since they were all on the rig until next month. I am afraid that I can not c them to say goodbye at least hiks:((
It seems so fast than i guess before, even I have never run any job yet over there hiks:( I still wanna go to offshore, jackup, drillship, using chopper and so on and so on…I still wanna go to Reliance project…but finally I have to accept this. This is one of the consequences I have to accept since I approve this job…yes mobile…so mobile…I just can wish the better thing would happend in my new location even wish the best of me will happen over there…amiiiiinnnn….
Hope to c u all guys in Mhape just wanna say goodbye or farewell… Hope this is the best scenario that Allah has planed for me…amiiiinnn
Its Like kinda Miracle Coincidence
November 2nd, 2007 by foolaprilGilaaaaaaaaaaaaaa…………
gw barusan dari drilling office klien buat nganterin deliverables…and u know whom I met overder????it was just like a crazy thing I never imagined before. I met the one I really wanna see since long time ago. Its been 7-8 years I have not met him. There was sumthing giglin in my heart when I saw him thiz afternoon….really I dunno its just like such a miracle or just simple coincidence I dunno, but obviously I am so happy really really happy. I neve guess that I will meet him here, even I never imagined that I can meet him again. We supposed to be able to work together, He is a company boy (not mature anough to be called as company man) but unfortunately bangko was my last job and I have to go from here…..
huahahahaha postingan gak penting banget =P but gpp yang penting gw hepi hepi dan hepi…duri emang kota bersejarah buat gw…banyak banget hal terjadi di sini…seneng sedih kesel becanda2 ah pokoknya segala macem ampe keringat air mata darah juga ada (hohohohoho mulai hiperbolis….=D)
Posting Posting
October 29th, 2007 by foolaprilWuah…udah lama juga gw gak posting di blog ini, ya baru2 ini gw pindah situs blog pribadi ke hotsite blogspot dengan beda url aja, jadi lebih sering posting ke blog yang itu. Yah biar adil fifty2 lah kali yak hehehehe…
Cuma mo cerita di last job gw kemaren naek ke rig di duri, banyak banget hal yang gw dapet. Every lil thing that could so valuable lesson to learn. Keadaan seminggu ke rig kemaren membuat gw tersadar akan hal2 yang sering gw lakuin…sumtimes I can not control my emotion, so I treat everyone around me badly just becuz of my bad mood. But the main point is not on such things but lebih ke arah hal2 yang shearusnya orang lakukan as a senior. DI company ini gak ada kata senior dan junior, di company ini hanya ada orang yang tau lebih dulu dan ornag yang tau belakangan. Sumpah gw tersentuh banget pas dengerin kisah si Bapak yang satu itu…mo nangis rasanya:(( but sumtimes I am very grateful by running thiz job. Even until now, sumtimes I can not believe that I could run this spectacular job hehehehehe=D….I am a woman surrounded by the men…when for the last week I got sick phisically, I dunno again and again gw keserang penyakit yang sama kalo di rig….masuk angin yang parah banget sampe muntah2 mulu,,,,jadi setiap abis makan pasti gw yang mual2 dan ujung2nya muntah lah semua apa yang gw makan….pokoknya badan gw selalu gak enak gitu deh…kebiasaan nyandu dikeork jadi gini deh…secara di rig itu gak ada cewek yang bisa ngerok gw,,,,gak mungkin dunk gw minta rig crew ngerokin gw heueheueheueheu…"hajar maneh teh ku urang hehehehe"…tapi ya itu dy yang bikin gw kuat…salah satu yang bikin gw sangat menghargai keberadaan nyokap gw sebagai orang satu2nya yang slealu ngerokin gw kalo gw masuk angin hiks:(( miss u mom….
Terlebih lagi telpon terakhir nyokap gw pas di rig berhasil membuat gw nangis, entahlah kata2 itu begitu tulus keluar dari mulutnya…kata2 yang akir2 ini sering dy ungkapkan ke gw, kata2 yang sama namun kali ini maknanya lebih dalam lagi, saran, nasehat, dan keinginan seorang ibu terhadap putrinya yang saat ini menginjakkan usia dihampir seperempat abad. Honestly I really wanna enhappy u mom…I am happy by seeing u happy, but I am only ordinary human who has also the limit, but I promise u I will make it true for u sumday…just wishing the best for me. Let Allah play his scenario of my life movie to make u happy. I am sure there is always a way for everyone….Now I am strong enough…even I much more stronger than u guess. By the time u will the fact y I could be like diz…..
Above all, sekarang gw seneng banget cuz gw ngerasa gw kembali terlahir seperti dulu lagi, seprti lia yang dulu, yang berarakan, rame, gak suka mellow2 and nangis2 lagi, yang seneng banget hanging bareng temen2 ceweknya, yang gak suka nangis di kasur ampe bantalbasah semua, ampe diketawain n digodain ade gw (huh…sialll), sekrang the new me has come,….I just realise about it since I was in duri after I took my days off in lebaran…sumpah gw ngerasa aura yang beda banget…gw kembali kayak jaman SMA or kuliah dulu….udha gitu di duri lagi banyak banget ceweknya…dari jakarta, dari balikpapan, dan dari india juga kayak gw, anadrill tuh emang sempit yah…gw jadi tau si anu lagi deketin si anu, si a pacaran ama si b, si c selingkuh ama si d, si e putus ama si f, dan itu juga yang gw bikin realise…"Hey wake up Lia….where r u for these two months?!?! its not like u…how could u spent ur time just for messing around ur lifetime, if the one u consider as the one who fill ur heart in live ever is the one has messed up ur own life. Just take a lesson from wutever I have done so far…."
Ohiya…i will leave diz city in some following days…eh bukan city juga kali ya duri kan cuma kecamatan heueheheueheeuheu…bakal kangen ama semua orang2 disini…ada banyak banget yang gw dapet disini,kenangan indah (halah jijik banget kata2 gw), canda, tawa, tangis, sedih, susah, seneng, sebel, dll deh…most important thing is I got so many friends….they really wanna understand and accept me wutever I am…they love me purely as the way I am…. thanks alot guyz…Hopw I will still be able to held the farewell party with all of u guyz….hiks hiks jadi sedih suasananya….berat juga sih ninggalin kota ini kalo dipikir2…dah berasa kayak base sendiri…sense of belonging gw dah nyatu banget ama sini…walo banyak dihujat ama orang2…walo base nya di tempat terpencil, walo gak ada mall, gak ada toko buku, but I love everything in here….gw juga ketemu orang yang gak gw sangka2 disini..di tempat ini…halah…jadi ngaco kemana2…ketemu si ganteng abang jakarta huahahahaha=)) yang kalo liat istrinya bikin minder duluan gak jadi ngecengin hahahaha=)) rismaaaaaaaaaa….abang lo tuh ye gilingan padi di sawah dah:D mizz mizz mizz u all guyz…..I will b mizzing u a lot…cheerio 
Alhamdulillah….
September 17th, 2007 by foolaprilAlhamdulillah…gw bisa lebaran di rumah….akirnya dapet juga tuh days off lebaran..minta 3 or 4 hari dikasih seminggu bo…whua senangnya…..yah semoga aja res job yang gw pegang sebelom lebaran itu dah kelar sebelom tanggal 10 Oktober…biar gw bisa pulang dgn lancar dan semoga diskusi si khalid and mas iskandar ttg keputusan breakout gw juga berjalan lancar…… amiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn…..
HUaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :((
September 17th, 2007 by foolaprilHuaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :(( siang ini niat ketemu FSM, gw niatnya mo ngajuin days off pas lebaran sekalian diskusiin masalah breakout gw yang notabene dah dapet ijin buat review breakout ama manajer gw di india….hmmm tapi ya entah tergantung pihak sini mo review gw kapan…i hope it will be soon hehehehe, tapi mood si boss nampak lagi kurang bagus…ditunggu bntaran…trus mantepin deh mo ketemu tuh si boss…eh yang mo diajak ketemuan malah menghilang dari ruangannya ntah kemana….
Trus jeng…jeng…jeng…jam setengah 4 sore hp gw bunyi ternyata dari si boss yang sedang mencariku…ada apa gerangan???firasat buruk…ngeliat wajah mas bambang yang juga lagi kebingungan…eh ternyata si boss udah ada di depan meja gw…."hey, i am calling u, n in fact u r here…OK tomorrow u will go to BN#5"…wah kan gw udah tau aja pasti gw disuruh ke rig padahal kemaren dibilangnya seminggu ini gw prepare dokumen buat breakout…baru dapet tandatangan beberapa doank ama ws training sehari doank eh dah disuruh ke rig lagi….n gw tanya "with whom i will go there…"
…si boss tampak bingung mulai mikir…"nobody is available in town, esa for pedadah…rikky for spa tomorrow..n ikhsan…is he in town???"
"hmmm nope i think he is in pedadah…"
"so hmmm….I think that u will go by urself…ALONE…r u fasting???"…Ya iya lah gw puasa….sinting gak kebayang gw ngejob sendirian, rig up sendirian panas2 buta, puasa pula….hoalah…hidupku hidupku….hiks:((…
n gw nanya lagi so far gimana tentang tool, udah ada yang prepare blom, unit?slimbox?consumables dan teman2…??? n dy jawab "I dunno, i think that u can check it now….in one hour….r u fasting???"eh dy nanya lagi…dibilang gw puasa juga…."u can ask esa or rikky to help u to check it…n report to me about it asap!!!"…gw cuma speechless sambil bilang OK Boss!!! huaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :(( hidup ini sulit jendralllllllllllllll!!!! Control Card gw masih banyak yang bolong nehhhhhhhhhhhhh…..WS training sheet juga…mlh besok dah janjian ama mas purbo buat training loading PP huaaaaaaaa:(( kapan lagi coba?!?!?!?!?! hix…..
Ya Allah semua ini cobaan…..supaya gw jadi lebih tough…amiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnn…n everything is gonna be ok if we think that it will be OK…We can make it if we think that we can do it…..CAIYOOOOOOOOOO Liaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!! hehehe berusaha menyemangati diri sendiri neh…..^_~
Should I quit ?!?!?!
September 16th, 2007 by foolaprilLast day I just talked with one of my fellaz working in da same company like me. In da middle of our talks, we found that we have da same thinking dat sumtimes we’re thinking that we’re gonna quit….n the reason why we often think like diz is almost da same….
I dunno y..recently the thinking of "I am gonna quit" come into my mind frequently…I dunno just because of the pressure I got here or people outside who considered my job as sumthing very strange to do esp by da girls…It’s OK…I try not to care for about wut others talked about me….because I have been getting used to listenin people talkin bad about me….it’s ok 4 da first time…one reason has fallen down…The other reason keep on coming up….the reason I always ask myself about it since I join diz company….
I feel left by otherz…left in progress actually…I dunno I just can blame my self or wutever 4 diz situation,,,I’ve tried my best but the result still beyond expectation hix:((…It happened particularly when there was anybody else tellin me dat u have nuthing to be proud of if u r only averagely standard people here…I get more down everytime people judge me like dat…I dunno I dunno and I dunno….
I dunno whether I will be able to survive here or not. It seemed that I begin to be lacked of motivation, lacked of spirit to work…I dunno y…I hate myself being like diz…but I dunno how to overcome diz case…sumtimes I wanna run away from diz situation and just think positively…I need more motivation here…but I dunno where I could get it:((….Sumtimes I think that its all my fault who not coming from related educational bg or other people also think da same way too like I did…or sumtimes I feel I got degradation of brain hix:( huaaaaaaaaaaaaaa……evenmore diz is the time when I have to really fight….I dunno where to carry my career…sumtimes I feel…ok let it flow like the way it wanna flow until i reach the point where I can not stand more over…and finally decided to quit….
But the spirit suddenly can come up again when I remembered one of telling me dat everytime u think dat u r gonna quit just tellin urself that u r gonna quit tomorrow. And until tomorrow come u keep on saying that u gonna quit tomorrow….I dunno whether I could be the person like him or not…now I need is just the motivation or sumthing that can support me to stay here….Hopefully it will come soon…
the spirit…the motivation…n the support from the bottom of my heart….May Allah always guide me in every step to take any decision in my life….amiiiin
Thank You Allah :)
September 13th, 2007 by foolaprilAllah itu emang buaaaaaaaaaaaiiikkkkk bangedhhh…
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