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Last day I just talked with one of my fellaz working in da same company like me. In da middle of our talks, we found that we have da same thinking dat sumtimes we’re thinking that we’re gonna quit….n the reason why we often think like diz is almost da same….

I dunno y..recently the thinking of "I am gonna quit" come into my mind frequently…I dunno just because of the pressure I got here or people outside who considered my job as sumthing very strange to do esp by da girls…It’s OK…I try not to care for about wut others talked about me….because I have been getting used to listenin people talkin bad about me….it’s ok 4 da first time…one reason has fallen down…The other reason keep on coming up….the reason I always ask myself about it since I join diz company….

I feel left by otherz…left in progress actually…I dunno I just can blame my self or wutever 4 diz situation,,,I’ve tried my best but the result still beyond expectation hix:((…It happened particularly when there was anybody else tellin me dat u have nuthing to be proud of if u r only averagely standard people here…I get more down everytime people judge me like dat…I dunno I dunno and I dunno….

I dunno whether I will be able to survive here or not. It seemed that I begin to be lacked of motivation, lacked of spirit to work…I dunno y…I hate myself being like diz…but I dunno how to overcome diz case…sumtimes I wanna run away from diz situation and just think positively…I need more motivation here…but I dunno where I could get it:((….Sumtimes I think that its all my fault who not coming from related educational bg or other people also think da same way too like I did…or sumtimes I feel I got degradation of brain hix:( huaaaaaaaaaaaaaa……evenmore diz is the time when I have to really fight….I dunno where to carry my career…sumtimes I feel…ok let it flow like the way it wanna flow until i reach the point where I can not stand more over…and finally decided to quit….

But the spirit suddenly can come up again when I remembered one of telling me dat everytime u think dat u r gonna quit just tellin urself that u r gonna quit tomorrow. And until tomorrow come u keep on saying that u gonna quit tomorrow….I dunno whether I could be the person like him or not…now I need is just the motivation or sumthing that can support me to stay here….Hopefully it will come soon…

the spirit…the motivation…n the support from the bottom of my heart….May Allah always guide me in every step to take any decision in my life….amiiiin

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